What? No bravado? No chest pounding about how my ideas will change health care while making patients smell as springtime fresh? Nope. None of that. It's hard to get excited about ideas when only money pays the bills.
Having now left the safe confines of my leftover earnings from my old practice, I am now supposed to be self-supporting. Two big things have caused this to not go as smoothly as I have planned:
- My construction took twice as long as I expected.
- I have yet to find a computer system that doesn't make me want to pound on my desk and wantonly overuse the word "inconceivable."
A month behind on beginning to earn money hurts a lot, as does the extra cost of construction, but the computer problem has me beyond frustrated. Why do they make medical records in which:
- Neither I nor my nurse could figure out how to put in vital signs
- You can't print out a letter with lab results
- You can't enter a "historic" or "handwritten" prescription to document it was given
- There is no flowsheet in which to enter lab results (we are 4 for 4 on that one)
- There is no way to attach external documents
- There is no marital status of "single," but there is "polygamous"?
I guess I am just a perfectionist, expecting everything from a record, but why do I have to settle for an EMR by choosing the one that is "the least aggravating?" But this is what I've had to do, and today I was entering data and getting distracted by my frustration, thinking bad thoughts about software engineers and fantasizing about building my own system? Before anyone tells me I should do just that, let me point out three things:
- I don't have the time.
- I don't have the money.
- When feeling insecure about how I run one business, the solution isn't to add another new business.
So this is hell. I am doing my best to be satisfied with my "minimum viable product," meaning that I am satisfied with putting out care that my patients are happy about (which they are) even if I am frustrated with the process of giving that care. I need to grow, but the computers are making it very difficult. I've had lots of suggestions thrown my direction, ideas of how I may solve my problem. It's probably just going to take time. I am learning patience. I am learning humility. I will be stronger for the lessons I am learning.
I've even considered trying to raise money as a "health care start-up." I've looked into small business incubators (although, being in Hell, the idea of an incubator isn't that appealing). I could have people buy bricks. I could sell autographed pictures of llamas (although I'd have to find a llama who can write first). I could engrave the name of supporters on my "humongous handicap ramp of awesomeness."
I'm waiting for the Riders of Rohan to appear on the hill, but so far they haven't come.
Come on, Theoden. I'm counting on you. I just hope you're not a software engineer.